Cursed or Blessed?

Sorry to wake you up while you are deep asleep,
I just can't help from giving you hugs and kiss.

Sorry to hold you tide while you are deep asleep,
I am so in love with you,
no one could never believe.

Can not stand for the idea that you will slip away,
one day,
at least,
I can still hold you tight when you are with me.

My dear baby,
Am I being cursed or blessed?

How could I ever get out of this?